I'm having some difficult issues with being able to communicate with people and getting in touch with my inner self.... i know i sound pretty homo writing this but theres no other specific way in doing so. lately ive been angry. my x girlfriend came to me a couple months ago and told me she was pregnant, i was excited, after a couple weeks had passed and her tummy was growing... we got into a fight and she said i wasnt the father. my world came crashing down and i moved to back to the UK with my family... she called just recently to tell me the child was born, i told her i wanted nothing to do with her and her bastard, she snapped and told me the child was in fact mine, i flew to her last weekend to take the paternity test, he wasnt mine. i came back home soon after my breakdown, we had plans of marriage and a new house. i was working so hard, graduated high school at 17, i was with her for 6 years and she did this to me. its hard to accept that i actually thought just for a second that she was the love of my life. I'm back on track now and working on communicating and expressing my feelings... this is my first step and i hope it leads me to recovery. i hope i find someone here who can help me, cause myspace is full of creepy stalkers and they scare me.
